Winter becomes colder today
All it takes is a silent ring, a hello, and …"have you received any bad news today"?
Already knew, my heart sinks,
"Who?"
A freak accident
A young man
An old friend
We are not taught to deal with Death
Not taught to respect, to understand
Old Friend
I will miss you greatly
Little stresses and interesting dreams as usual, what else
is there to say? I am still human.
I woke up this morning.
Damn
I am beat today. One can only handle so many late nights, no
matter what they consist of.
It’s good and fine though. I looked out of windows all night that were moist
and foggy due to a precipitation that struck us all by surprise, drank tea and
starved my body of natural resources that should be deep in the super conscious
demi-godical ego, the one who rests in my heavy head. I am at the breaking
point now. Things are about to happen. Things.
Traffic swallowed the sounds of the rain, making me wonder if I should stay. I
think in this giant city, there must be someone watching me as watch this giant
city.
"Where are you when I really need you?" I think to myself and
realize that the words were actually spoken and I seizure knocking over a cup
of tea and scaring my cat. I scared myself more then the cat realizing that I
am shaking uncontrollably and wish I could let a tear free from the prison they
are kept.
I should think in more seriousness about staying or going, my time is short and
I should decide where I belong. In a vision I saw myself and my cat, following
me
12 minus
Ever time listless and wait with the disease around the waist
and the bottles of scotch and vodka in the board
and glass with one cube drained
These daily
These ritual
These Thoughts
Ever time lasts and I am bored and reckless cause for disrupt and I don’t think you care
And the bottles don’t drunk
The Ice doesn’t cool
Memories of you
Memories of family
Memories of blood and screams
I push back in my throat swallow vomit and walk
You are out there and it would be nice to know
This silence silent cause causes and I am loosing patience and wont be a patient in that damn ward again
…..12 minus and counting
